moving out.

bye! =3

scared nervous terrified

even cant sleep right now.

gosh.....

all my bags are packed

finally

after working tomorrow straight to KL.

gotta be at lavender road before 8pm

see you guys,

if i do make it out of the operation room alive.

wish me luck

or anyone wanna drop down to see me before i go?

maybe it will really be the last time you ever see me.

lol

=p

but if i dont

i wish my words could be spread through all of you all those some who hasnt seen my blog before.

i just wanna say thanks for everything guys.

good and bad times.

to some people i did hurt i think its karma for me.

well i did live up my life to the fullest.

got a good career, traveled most of the world, made up with my family, even did fell in love, deeply.

they were ups and down,

i guess i had accomplished alot for this past 24 years.

haha

typing like im gonna die!

maybe if i dont make it, i'll ask someone to type a last post for me.

well thats it for now.

take care

merry christmas and happy new year to you all

weak, very weak

wish you guys a very merry chirstmas to all

cause

i wont be here.

im going to kl

not for holidays,

butt for my lungs operation.

again.

such a nice way to spend my festive seasons.

ho ho ho

WTF were you guys trying to do?

bringing me to old kallang aiport!!!!!!

siaw!!!

i dont wanna go there still you guys wanna drag me!

and even driving pass her house??

seriously,

im over it, whats the point you all go and ask me

talk to her.

patch things up.

i already did ok?

please,

pointless, we are both leading our separate lives.

she already made a point that she doesnt want me back

and i too asked her to go.

seriously,

this aint a romantic comedy movie.

its life.

finally, some peace and quiet around here.

back to tranquility

im sorry

miss yuyi.

but i think we should not start anything special yet.

maybe we rushed too fast about this.

cause you know we have to bond together so we can make it happen

so one step at a time.

i dont want this to hurt us both.

and to you.

please,

go,

be happy with your life

why are you still clinging on here?

i am freaking pissed.

just say that you left a mark that you are a garbage.

the last bad impression you gave me was a big impact.

still sms-ing me for oh some reasons or explanation.

or are you seeking attention?

or you cant just let go?

what do you really want from me??

since that way

i hope you can just go, far far away from here.

go to him for all i care.

since you love him sooooo much,

get going.

leave out everything here.

why do you even bother what i say?

does it affects so much?

sometimes,

i wish i never knew you from the start.

was my biggest mistake to love or care or cried for someone thats so foolishy living in her little world.

face the facts, it was your own fault to what're now.

you cant compromise things

you say this and that.

always wanted to be diplomatic.

suck it,

its reality,

ughhh,

to think i loved something disgusting that time.

now,

i can see when you needed someone you treat them damn nice.

after you've got what you want,

or got a bigger bite.

u just leave them feel miserable.

thanks

for nothing.

please fuck off.