oh ya...

i had my very FIRST subway dinner with sophia.

haha.

ordered Italian B.M.T with pamersan oregano bread.

lol

extra olives extra lettuce and a dab of sweet onion vinaigrette .

i think it's better than a McSpicy.

and thanks sophia accompanying dinner with me.

then headed to watch 2012.

kinda nice, touching story too..

and sophia, sorry la!

i thought you said the president was cute,

how would i know you were talking about the indian geologist son.

give up!!

=]

damn november rain

hate it.

makes me lazy and tired.

i wanna go out~!

when im with her

she's caring, understanding

i feel warm and safe

we dont quarrel much

when im with you

you're unreasonable and rebellious

i feel sad and insecure

we quarrel most of the times

when i was alone

she was there for, cheering me up.

you.... you did nothing.

i was dumb,

i was blind,

so after all this.

i know clinging on something so stupid.

its not worth it.

so i say goodbye to you with a kiss.

thanks for the chocolates you all.

=]

life is like a box of chocolates,

you'll never know what will you get.

last text i got,

thank you uncle Ng

do, asleep already?

if you are, good, dont bother to reply, you need your rest. =X

but wish i was beside you, watching you falling asleep.

it's just so adorable. awwwww...... :)

i cant bear to see you like this :(

i wish i was strong like you

if i do have 1 wish that makes it come true, it's you and me, do

i really love you. :)

even you came back for holidays

i was so nervous or anxious to see you.

even though it's not the same, but im just glad that i can see you,

because you meant a lot to me :)

i want you mine forever, teehee...

i remembered how we met,

party at my friends house and there you were, standing in front of me mingling with your friends.

:)

really fun times. you we're really a geek that time.

appearance do change, but inside you're still you.

im glad that you never changed a lot.

but, it hurts to see someone i love to get hurt.

really, i feel so weak and helpless, i know you're all alone, but do remember

i'll always be there to help you cross any obstacles you're going through.

i hope you and her do go back together, even it kills me but, i just want you happy.

:)

hehe.. sorry for this sms

i know it's not the right time to write this but,

it's better late than never.

so, cheer up, or do you still wan me for you to play a song for you?

hehe... its up to you.

talk to you later ok?

if there's anything, call me or text me.

you know i'll be there

well gtg now, bb, sweet dreams ya. =X

you're still you even in sms.

=]

thanks for the final sms

and thank you for being there.

unappreciated you.

i got a phone call at 6.45am yesterday.

it was her number, but it wasnt her at the phone.

are you ah do?

er... yes? who's this?

im her father.

eh? hello uncle, how are you? long time no see, why did you call me?

what i just wanted to say,

she was hit by car this morning, and she didnt make it in the ICU.

just want to let you know, the story...

the only thing i can from behind is sobs and weeping in the emergency room.

i was numb.

i was speechless.

completely blanked.

on the 5th November 2009, 6.45am.

you have left us from this world to join the Lord.

for the past few months, you saw me suffering.

you were always there, comforting me,

even though your back there, you always had faith on me.

ah do, i know you can do it, you're not that weak,

and i exploded on here saying

you dont know how it's like to lost someone you love

yes, you were my first love,

and still over there, you tried your best and never gave up on me

cried and cried that you wanted me back badly.

even though i had someone that time,

even i wasnt attached and missing someone else,

you still were cheerful and waited for me.

i remembered how you played the piano

playing wait for you through my webcam,

i remembered you post those chocolates for my birthday.

gosh with a letter that i just threw out.

accompanying and visited my parents, cause i told you they felt lonely and missing me.

even helped my sister to celebrated her birthday.

even was there at my operation room when i had my lungs operations.

and i just ignored you and told you to get lost.

really those sayings were true

you never regret till it's gone,

now youre gone,

i hope you can rest peacefully,

i hope you are doing well.

i hope you can just understand this.

i'm sorry that i didnt appreciated you from the start

i remember how u wanted to hang on even i said i wanted to stop this

you were still compromising my bad temper and tantrums.

really, even last night after i had a long conversation with her,

you told me everything is going to be ok.

im yours whenever youre ready.

with a cheerful face.

but now, i cant see that smile anymore.

i cant even talk to you, or text or call you anymore

how is it going to be ok? it adds more pain for what i got now.

but after all this, i guess i wasnt meant to be loved by others,

cause i dont appreciate, but for you,

i will change, i know you'll be watching from the clouds above.

and with your special smiling face.

but for now, im pretty sure i wont start a relationship that soon.

i gotta need some time alone..

even away from my friends.

goodbye,

rest in peace.

and yea, im pretty sure.

i love you grandma

so touching....

i miss my grandma

even though i dont have remember how was she

cause she passed

away when i was really really young at the age of 4

but from all said

"grandma love you alot,

she was always there for you all the time,"

she brought you to everywhere she goes, shopping, walk in the park, mingling with friends, and even brought me to her mahjong game

she had leukemia, and she was weak,

and it was at a critical stage and there's no way to cure it.....

her last words

" tell do

do im sorry, i couldnt make it when he graduates, advicing him about life, seeing him falling in love, or seeing him in his weeding suit, but i will always be beside him watching over him"

that was her last words before her last breath

grandma,

from the pictures i can tell,

pictures wo

rth a thousand words,

and thank you,

even though im not a very good grandson,

and disobeying daddy and mummy most of the time,

im sorry about that,

and thank you,

and im happy that you are proud of me being your grandson.

and im glad to have a grandma like you,

i know you'll always be there for me,

and im trying my best to grow up to the person you want me to be,

yea, we can still talk and meet in my dreams

but till then, someday i will be there for you,

taking care of you,

just a matter of time, and sorry to keep you waiting

and dont worry grandma, im not planning to die that soon,

just go with the flow,

till its really my time till i can see you,

and now, i will put my head up high,

for you grandma,

i'll be strong.

i love you.

and also tha

nks again jeremi for the t-hirt

=]

really nice

BEER FACTOR

well off to bed now

=]

till then