scared nervous terrified

even cant sleep right now.

gosh.....

all my bags are packed

finally

after working tomorrow straight to KL.

gotta be at lavender road before 8pm

see you guys,

if i do make it out of the operation room alive.

wish me luck

or anyone wanna drop down to see me before i go?

maybe it will really be the last time you ever see me.

lol

=p

but if i dont

i wish my words could be spread through all of you all those some who hasnt seen my blog before.

i just wanna say thanks for everything guys.

good and bad times.

to some people i did hurt i think its karma for me.

well i did live up my life to the fullest.

got a good career, traveled most of the world, made up with my family, even did fell in love, deeply.

they were ups and down,

i guess i had accomplished alot for this past 24 years.

haha

typing like im gonna die!

maybe if i dont make it, i'll ask someone to type a last post for me.

well thats it for now.

take care

merry christmas and happy new year to you all

weak, very weak

wish you guys a very merry chirstmas to all

cause

i wont be here.

im going to kl

not for holidays,

butt for my lungs operation.

again.

such a nice way to spend my festive seasons.

ho ho ho

WTF were you guys trying to do?

bringing me to old kallang aiport!!!!!!

siaw!!!

i dont wanna go there still you guys wanna drag me!

and even driving pass her house??

seriously,

im over it, whats the point you all go and ask me

talk to her.

patch things up.

i already did ok?

please,

pointless, we are both leading our separate lives.

she already made a point that she doesnt want me back

and i too asked her to go.

seriously,

this aint a romantic comedy movie.

its life.

finally, some peace and quiet around here.

back to tranquility

im sorry

miss yuyi.

but i think we should not start anything special yet.

maybe we rushed too fast about this.

cause you know we have to bond together so we can make it happen

so one step at a time.

i dont want this to hurt us both.

and to you.

please,

go,

be happy with your life

why are you still clinging on here?

i am freaking pissed.

just say that you left a mark that you are a garbage.

the last bad impression you gave me was a big impact.

still sms-ing me for oh some reasons or explanation.

or are you seeking attention?

or you cant just let go?

what do you really want from me??

since that way

i hope you can just go, far far away from here.

go to him for all i care.

since you love him sooooo much,

get going.

leave out everything here.

why do you even bother what i say?

does it affects so much?

sometimes,

i wish i never knew you from the start.

was my biggest mistake to love or care or cried for someone thats so foolishy living in her little world.

face the facts, it was your own fault to what're now.

you cant compromise things

you say this and that.

always wanted to be diplomatic.

suck it,

its reality,

ughhh,

to think i loved something disgusting that time.

now,

i can see when you needed someone you treat them damn nice.

after you've got what you want,

or got a bigger bite.

u just leave them feel miserable.

thanks

for nothing.

please fuck off.

lol

are you serious?

i think YOU dont know me that well

u fuck arrogant.

whats the point?

you'll always be the spoil brat who will always say:

I know everything better than you.

I am always right.

You do always keep on making things complicated for yourself

Try to think, GROW UP.

There is time to be humble sometimes.

Well dude, speechless,

but im still confused?

Why does lil old me got to do with YOU?

Can't you see that im tired of you.

You connect to her.

Her= Trouble, alot of fussy fussy trouble.

can't get the facts that youre just some kid im trying to get rid of?

Well that was quite a show you put there.

hoorah.

round of applause and a standing obation for you.

time to pick up your toys and get going

talk the talk when you CAN walk the walk.

i pity you.

lucky im in love with my bestfriend

we laughed

we kissed

we cried

we shared

we found

each other.

=]

oh yes, december was a really good month

miss yuyi, haha love ya

kids these days.

=]

was at home whole day

haha

so decided to clean up my messy messy wardrobe

=]

haha

took me 3 hours just to organize everything!

but, it was fun though,

never thought i got a lot of stuffs inside!!

like,

Hershey's kisses.

=]

my work permit picture.

i was damn fat that time.

also, those that paused me for a few seconds

the shortest moment which was my happiest moment

for a short moment, i did made me happy.

a small little note

from ms taiwan

but you cant see the smile as same as last time.

a letter from

from miss indonesia

yes, it still has the gucci smell.

well,

i stopped for a moment,

thinking about those memories i had with both of them.

with a smile.. just a memento.

moving along as i know i will.

goodbye past.

=]

the rebellion begins

The leader of Hazard Minors.

We did supported you all the way being.

And following your leadership for a long long time.

its been 4 years, your time is up.

There is no achievement you did.

It was a good start for you.

Getting performance, shows so we can push up our name.

I was damn proud to be one of the greatest crew i ever thought.

Even proud to wear out my HM crew tee and name tag.

Once you did told us, we dance just to express.

Cause we are bros whom loves to dance

it was what you thought me....

fame and fortune in the shuffling scene is nothing, just have fun.

But i speak up to all of them.

Since when we want money or profits for ourselves?

We did not started to being greedy for anything.

Who was the one who started this.

Dont think it us whom changed.

It was you, seriously

What you did type in your blog was outrages.

We never hold any grudges or TULAN!

why oh why you wanna start up the fire again?

and typing those silly words.

if you are happy with them just type out you are happy with them.

please dont revolve around us again.

Imaturity is isnt something you can get, its something you learn by yourselves.

seriously,

imaturity begins with immature people judging people immaturely.

sad that you should know this better since youre the leader.

Well it's time.

I stepped up for all of them.

I WILL CLAIM THE TITLE OF LEADER OF THE WHOLE HAZARD MINORS.

believe me,

i dont wish, i will make it happen.

pooled with HM members yesterday.

fun fun!

and david, i know la, i owe you starbucks.

and ewwww. condoms

hahah.

Hazard Minors

i gotta claim it, i really want it.

i will make it better than ever.

another agenda.

well, we are drifting apart slowly.

its like we ran out of words about each other

weird.

we were so closed but now, its boredom to us,

but i'll hang on.

=]

im planned to go zouk out.but i saw someone whom is going, so i dont want to spoil my whole day mood if i was there. so i sold myticket 80 bucks to my friend. so ZIRCA here i come!    =)

cant be mended

why did i had a dream about her last night?

when we were together,

hugging and kissing her,

sneaking late at night at her house.

sharing ciggies when we we almost broke.

always going out all the time.

and i said i love you alot of times.

and she going infront of me at the escalator so that she can hug me.

and even worrying about her when she went for her china trip

and was afraid that she wont come back?

and also watching those lame lame phua chu kang episodes.

even dreamt bout her waiting for me to finish work.

and whining about me not being on time.

those happy times.

why did it just go by just saying just break up?

stupid mistake.

well its life, you can undo or erase those decisions what you choose.

cant be mended back as it used to.

damn brain stop playing tricks on me.

i just want myself to be happy.

pain, youre satisfying yourself alot huh?

ahh....

memories.

=]

well back to reality.

fuck

slipped down when i was shuffling in the room

collapsed and sprained one of my leg muscle.

just great.

i started the game,

so i ended it.

just a few glimpse of her.

makes me wanna take back the same road again.

i wish i can just speak out to her.

even just a simple "Hi"

but is it worth all of it now?

for what i decided before all these.

i think it was for the best.

no point of worrying and stressing yourself to that someone.

because that someone doesnt know how you feel.

another agenda:

i got my lungs results.

things are not doing good for me.

need to face the operating room again.

haiz

die!

wish i could just really die while they operate me.

makes me suffer more.

=[

die

lost my voice.

lol

and almost choked on slice cucumber!

damn soi!

hang on, just hang on,

one more day of breakfest shift then youre freee!!!!

but nt going to zouk out.

tickets are way too exp.

another agenda:

thought you were better than all of them. but what you said, makes me disappointed about you.

because immaturity begins with immature people judging people immaturily

if you think youre right, then i'll let it be,

i dont wanna waste my energy to talk bout it already.

=]

so all the best to you.

FUCK

I OVERSLEPT!!!!

late for work again.

lol

got a phone call at 5.30am! when i should have wake up at 3am

maybe too tired and go out till around 11 plus.

whats adding it worse is im sick.

fever, flu cough at the same time.

seeing things double and keep having migraines

this feeling sucks

but tonight's gonna be a good night,

maybe... well off to bed

gotta wake up at 3am again.

=[

anybody wanna wakeup call me?

please?

Being rich doesnt give you the right to shout at others or to kick up a scene.

It only shows how immature you are

bitch.

also....

you have to belief what you saw . No matter what your explanation is , my heart still belief my eyes.

thats why things cant changed back as it was, sorry.

another agenda,

east coast park session with ms yuyi!

haha

it was fun, beside the prawn fishing part.

wasted and its boring, better waste the money for heinekken.

=]

thanks alot ms. yuyi.

i had fun and yes...

we both walked the same road before....

=]

addicted

day and night.

The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night

=]

another agenda:

focus dominic please focus dammit!!!

=]

hi,

how are you doing up there?

its been almost a month....

but i hope your doing fine,

i had a dream about you,

oh as magical it was,

you're there smiling and greeting me with your open arms,

i do miss those times.

haha..

dont worry bout your parents.

they are fine,

and i even called them once a week.

remember those time?

when your mum picked up the phone

me: hello? is SHE there?

her mum: huh? who are you? whos this ah?

me: erm.. dominic.. her friend

her mum: ohhh youre the guy she said you cute ah???

her: MUM!~~ dont embarrass me ler......

lol

well im sorry to put you alot of hardship with my stubbornness last time.

i ignored your feelings, it was nothing but heartaches.

but we cant change it back as it was used to be.

but

thank you for all the times you've put up to me,

and i know that we'll meet someday.

when the time is right.

but for the time now,

im just waiting for the right person,

like you said.

=]

but more important, career is my priority now.

well im glad things turned out just like old times,

with love.

=]

december is a really good month

bloody november!
glad thats over


You said you didn't want to see me get hurt, so does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried?


all my bags are packed im ready to go.

=]

then
is he gonna be there
by your side
when you need him the most?
When you need a shoulder to cry on?
When you just need a hug to make you feel better
when you just want to see his smile
or even you need a kiss cause you just miss him?

He cant right?
But he will always be by your side in the phone.
Which i think its pointless
sooner or later it will drift apart
i know so.