didn't even go the chance to tell you in person, and i got shot down.
Do, as yr fren im so glad that i can bring u d hapiness.
But i havent finnd my hapiness yet.
I take my job and d time being with friends as my medicine.
U guys make my life happy, but not my heart.
Now my mind is tranquil as water.
i still got d heart for somebody, but in what sense?
He is not d one i can give hope. Not important anymore......
At d same time, i cant take d heart pain again.
Havent cured yet...
Hope you can understand......
why cant i be the one to make you happy?
if you do give me a chance, i swear i wont break your heart...
bah...
this happened to me 3 times.
i had my chance, i fuck it all up
3 of you.
why cant you see?
i've changed
im not like last time......
sigh...
i was infront of you for you all the time?
but i guess,
im not worthy
alot.
i always do make my life miserable.
wish i could go back, forget about everything here.
i wanna rot myself to death in my room.
i hate it here even more.
goodbye.
